— 1 Timothy 6:6-7
This morning I was reminded of Jesus’ power, His mercy, and His desire to lavish my heart.
No matter where we think we’re going, what we’ve planned, or how we think we’re going to get there - He’s the most Holy Planner. Had I planned my entire life in selfishness, I can assure you many of my hopes and dreams would also have been sabotaged. My selfishness would have settled for less. My insecurity would have cheated on Him. And, inevitably, I would be in a dark world searching for the “light at the end of that narrow tunnel.”
But you see, He chose me. He called me by Name and instilled in me a desire I couldn’t resist. He lived in Me; He lives in Me. (I also love John 15:16)
I am His, and I am confidently pursuing dreams, today, I never dreamed were imaginable.
Lately the Lord has me stuck on posture. What is my posture towards Him and WHAT is His posture towards me? Am I leaning into Him? Am I resisting? Is He far off with His arms crossed against me (no), is He longing to hold and guide me (yes)? Looking to scripture to see exactly how God’s posture is towards us is fascinating. He holds, He carries, He runs, He shouts for us, He’s sending, He’s praying, He’s hurting, He’s loving. And Jesus? He was washing. Knelt down, bent low, with the dirt and nasty of the day all up on His hands. He led by serving. And moreover? He called us to the same.
Have we gotten off track maybe by being so excited and intent on what WE have to give? What skills we excel in and those we’re lacking in? Do you feel fed up because people aren’t listening to you or following you steadily? I find myself there. Wondering if people see how hard I’m trying to love or how intentionally I’m trying to lead. I find myself dreaming about the future and the words He might let me write or the people He might let me speak to. Even with my children, I prayerfully imagine the beautiful ways He’s going to have them grow and the blessed part I get to have in that as their chief mama-shepherd.
But I’ve forgotten to bend down and lead by serving.
I’ve forgotten that it’s the joy of the thing to get my hands dirty in the junk.
I’ve forgotten to lead like Jesus.
And I’m ready to remember.
Approximately, 9 years ago I sat in the crowd at your dance competition. Cheered you on and watched you dance in admiration. If it wasn’t for you I would never have been able to fill your shoes, or want to fill your shoes in that sense. I knew I wanted to be just like you, and that’s exactly what pushed me to be a dancer. So, thank you for being a positive role model for me while growing up. You showed me what was possible for me to do. Today marks not only my last state dance but also, your last time to cheer my honey badger butt on! Thank you for coming to competitions this year, it means the world to me to have people out in the stands cheering me on. To know that my team has such a strong support group is truly amazing. Frazee Flygirls wouldn’t be the same without the Hart family’s support! On this note, enjoy today and tomorrow. Cheer as loud as you can, embrace the people around you and have a wonderful time. Because after ll, this is our last state dance for a while! Thank you for always being a supportive sister, I love you so much.
- Your little sister, Cheyanne Laura
Words can hardly describe my heart. And every time I sit down to vulnerably share what the Lord has been teaching me, words are not adequate enough to accurately share.
I have noticed in myself a spirit of complacency and I hate it. I wish away one season to wish in another. This has been a theme in my heart for the past year and a half, unfortunately. You see, I have been learning more and more about consistency and the power that brings in my life. But what I’m also learning is that consistency has never really been present in my life.
I desire consistency in every area of my life, but especially in my heart.
In this season of transition, again and again, I am recognizing my selfishness and bitterness. I often find myself dreaming about having my own home, settling down, not living out of a laundry basket, making excuses for my lack of effort in relationship, and feeling overwhelmed when I’m not trusting the Lord. Although these all seem to creep sinfully in my life, He has been peeling back ever layer of my mucky heart to reveal to me my ugly.
You may not understand now what I am doing declares the Lord, but soon you will see.
How easy it is for me to forget about His timing, His will, His way all because of my selfishness. My lack of priority. My lack of time invested with Him.
I can assure you of one thing, though. He has been teaching me so much about Himself in our time together. He has been teaching me how to rid more fully of myself to be more encouraging, vulnerable, open, CONFIDENT and consistent. For this I will continue to invest in my King with persistence, passion, hope and consistency!
There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them. We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems. That’s not how we’re made. In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall. Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time. This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.
It’s been a long time since I’ve blogged a bit about life. No excuses, though!
So much to share with such joy and excitement:
I have accepted the offer at the University of St. Thomas/St. Catherine’s University (don’t ever expect me to call it that again!) enrolling for the 1 year full-time Advanced Standing Master’s of Social Work program. My dream is to work in a college doing education, but I believe obtaining my Master’s in Social Worker gives me an opportunity to pursue my dream one-step-at-a-time. Believe me, I am ready for a transition!
Living with Dylan’s family has been rough, challenging, exciting, and momentous. We’ve been living with the Svobodny’s including Dylan’s parents and his little brother, Beau, since Thanksgiving Break 2013. I can assure you this is no newlywed’s dream, but I was ready for the adventure.
And I have experienced growing pains and have been stretched in such incredible ways. Even when I least expected this season to be one of the most trying and faith-building, I have been so encouraged to see the Lord’s mighty hand and steadfast love.
We’ve been prayerful about every decision. Where the Lord is leading us. What this process looks like. Most importantly, embracing Him together. In October we were offered to move into a beautiful little home in North Moorhead. This was the start of the adventure to staying with the Svobodny’s. During our stay we pressed in recognizing the Lord’s heart for the true call to “leave your father and mother to become one.” We realized the Cities is not only an opportunity to grow professionally but it’s time for us to grow in unity. The door was kicked wide open and we’re excited for what’s to come.
We have approximately 8 weeks before we’re going to be in the Cities full-time. Praise the Lord, we were recently asked to house sit for 6 of the 8 weeks…in Moorhead. This gives us a neat opportunity to be absorbed in community in Moorhead before setting off on our adventure to the Cities. I cannot wait to host coffee dates, dinner parties, and just purely be in Moorhead. I love it there! < Growth!!
This is just a small glimpse of what Jesus is doing in our life. I’ve resigned from my position at Sanford. I’m health insurance-less, benefit-less and income less - but I have Jesus. I have the best health insurance, benefit, and income than anyone who doesn’t know Him. AND - I have a sexy husband who is eager to provide with his bow-and-arrow and sword in protection of his Beloved Bride.
1. Prayers for our hearts was we anticipate this transition from Moorhead to St. Paul. Specifically, over employment for Dylan, housing, and finances.
2. We are so ready! Prayers over our hearts as we anticipate huge things in our community here in Detroit Lakes & Moorhead the next 8 weeks.
3. Prayers we’re be content, filled of joy, and overflowing with a peace that surpasses all understanding! He’s so good.
4. I have been stressed. My face has broken out. I need prayers for healing because this is REALLY painful!! Oh, yikes!!