His will for your life is to know Him more. Your decisons are His will as you are His will; intimately. And as you grow in relationship with Him, living out His will suddenly becomes harmonious. There’s not anxiety, fear, or discouragement. Things became easy. Intimacy is grown. Reassurance is given.
His will is for you to know Him more.
"Relationship is the ultimate known." - David Plott
This morning I met with the most BEAUTIFUL 22 year old female I’ve ever seen. She had no makeup on; she was wearing sweat pants and was extremely depressed. She was overwhelmingly tearful, shaking and felt hopeless. In fact, she needed a higher level of care. But something really stood out to me this morning. No matter how much we try to minister to people, it’s the love and relationship that matter most.
This young lady presented with obsessive and compulsive tendencies. Her diagnosed OCD has gotten so bad she is feeling like her dreams of being a successful therapist, a striving adult, and a compassionately driven human being will “never be reality.” As we discussed the process of hospitalization for stabilization and the support she will receive inpatient, she shared she had little support. No. She had no support in this community. She couldn’t think of one person who could come be with her in this time to help with transportation from a clinic to the emergency department for medical clearance to the inpatient unit for stabilization. No one person.
I am so thankful my undercover detective ministry role is called “Behavioral Health Consultant” with an “LSW” licensure. Today, I am reminded of two things. 1) I am so thankful for community. The role of a Lover of the Lord is to grow in Love and give it away. This is ministry. 2) No matter how challenging my role can be, I am thankful for my job. A gentle spirit (that’s been growing more and more in me!) that’s able to bring peace over scared and hopeless hearts. I believe this to be the Holy Spirit, of course.
Here’s a recap of State Dance 2014:
My heart has been exploding at the sheer forgiveness Cheyanne and I have seen in our relationship. Following awards at Sections in Aitkin the weekend prior, Cheyanne hugged me and said “I love you.” I can assure you my heart shed many tears that moment while my face felt glued in the smile position! Things have only gotten more sentimental.
We left for the Target Center on Friday monring. Happy Valentine’s Day!! I rode with Tori, Audrenna and my mom. Tabiatha, Chelsey (my counsin), Emily and Madillyn rode in Tabiatha’s car. Our journey was inevitably set to be dramatic, fun, and memory creating considering all who were attending!! Need I say more. Midway through our trip Mom handed me a brown construction piece of paper folded in three about 1/4 size of the entire page and stamped with a cut out pink heart. I proceeded to open the card realizing at that very moment it was homemade and from Cheyanne.
I can assure you all I did for 20 minutes was cry. I will post her exact words at a later time. For now, just know it’s still speaking to my heart and my eyes fill with tears at just the thought of her words.
The weekend was so blessed. That’s just my point. With drama beyond belief, I was incredibly blessed to see the growth in MY heart. Just my heart alone. Not that my family hasn’t grown because they have. But it is a beautiful gift when we get to be far removed from something and return to what we once thougth we knew to see we’ve been drastically transformed.
Think about that for just one second.
Your attitude in your work place. Your role in the church. Your position in your ministry. How often do we just need time to be in His palm to be grown, stretch and molded.
He speaks loudest when we’re just silent.